Just letting y'all know....

Thank you....really...thank you for the comments.

They mean so much to me.

That y'all are taking the time to write them and be supportive to me.

I truly appreciate it.

Nothing major has happened since my last posting.

As far as I know there aren't anymore bank accounts for him to clean out.

But then....I'd be the last one to know, right?

I haven't ruled out the services of a forensic accountant.

BUT...as I've said before...(or maybe I didn't...I tend to forget what I said since the bomb was dropped on me) : if he gives me what I want, we can get this over with sooner rather than later.

Emotionally....I think I'm doing somewhat better. I still cry at least once a day, or at least tear up....and I may for a long time. I'm not gonna try to stop that (I don't know that I could if I wanted to).

I think it's better to get it out.

Y'all....I know that I come across as a middle-aged, foul-mouthed, hard-ass bitch. And sure: I CAN be that.

But I'm also a middle-aged woman with a heart. A heart that is hurting at the way the man I've been married to for 19 years ( our anniversary is this month~nice irony there, Mike)...raised my daughters with....buried my father with....shared tears and heart rending pain at the death of two doggie family members with...shared all the joy and all the pain and all the hell that we've shared....that he could do this to me this way.

I know I'll get better...and the pain will lessen.

But right now.

Today.

It hurts.

p.s. I can't say that I don't deserve this. For those of you who don't know: Mike left his first wife (they were married 25 years) for me. You know how they say "what goes around, comes around"? It really does.

The acrimony of his first divorce has been the reason that we always said (once things started to fall apart for us) that OUR divorce wouldn't be that way.

It appears he forgot that part.